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Is It Just Me?

Is it just me? Or is this the MOST depressing time of the year. It seems that everyone I know is either sick, getting sick, or getting over being sick. I think that it must have something to do with the hours of sunlight. Maybe I have Seasonal affective disorder . Let me go find my light box.

My negative, self-loathing alter ego will now speak for a while: I want enough chicken McNuggets to fill up a wheelbarrow, and enough Mountain Dew to fill up a bathtub. I want to eat the McNuggets while vegging out in front of a brand new 65 inch HDTV, while downloading songs to my brand new video Ipod. I want to then take my new Ipod, grab a handful of chocolate chip cookies (home-made, of course) and hop in my brand new G6. I want, I want, I want, I want, I want! Why? I have no real idea, but it might have something to do with the fact that I am depressed, tired, and drained. I don’t really care. I just want to spend some money on something I don’t need, I want to eat something not good for me, and I want to forget about my responsibilities. Sorry, but this is how I feel. In fact, I’m not sorry. This is my blog. I can say what I want to say.

I want this blog to be a place where I can be honest and real. These feelings hit me hard today, and I spent a long time in thought and prayer, processing what my emotions were (and are) telling me. Like I always say, I’m just a dude trying to change his life. And life is hard.